Hi, I'm still new to this whole html thing, please be patient with me.
Making a blog is something I've wanted to pursue for a while. Just for my thoughts and admittedly bad ideas and that will probably not affect my career.
P.S. I am sorta "a lot" to be around idk how that translates online
Things that I enjoy:
I often do talk about how I would eating human flesh if given the opportunity. Not for the desire to fufill some carnal cannibalistic instinct that seems somewhat baked into some lesbians. Online, people will make a connection between being gay and cannibalism, maybe because homosexual love can be seen as cannibalistic? I joked that even being skin to skin with my ex girlfriend would never be enough, thaht I would need to claw my way into her. Which is terribly offputting to others in retrospect and makes me wonder how terribly I can flirt and get away with it. Anyways, many of my queer friends also have some sort of intersect with cannibalism as well. So not a unique thing but also not to generalize all queer people as evil flesh loving demons. With the option of flesh, you can have it cooked or raw and I'm not sure which way I would go with eating it. Maybe some sort of "rare" but it depends on the health impact. I'm not too keen on getting something from eating human flesh but maybe that chance doesn't deter me completetly away from the idea...yet. I'm just hoping I don't get a taste for human flesh and have to actively seek it out instead of it just being a one time thing like me wanting to try smoking once. That would be bad haha.
17:25 April 10th 2025
Sparked on from the 2021 Cruella film scene I saw on Youtube, Cruella's evil mom/boss compliments Cruella into letting her guard down to push her off a cliff. I'm not too sure how people would feel about this, if it was realistic or whatnot but I think more people would fall (see what I did there) for it. Maybe complimenting others really is a secret conversation tactic since people just like praise. If someone likes your outfit that means you're more justified in liking it to then? I'm a little too overly cautious about everything so I tend to just say thanks and uncomfortably try to slide away. Not that I'm not confident about it but I think I'm just afraid and need to constantly keep some of my guard up. If you've met me, I was most likely approaching you first but I always have this silly lingering feeling in the back of my heart that people are ...bad. Even if I believe that people are ultimately good and to have some level of trust in others. Weird contridiction. Yeah, it does seem bad that everyone I know today I've had negative thoughts about but we all have negative thoughts about each other, right? Compliments totally maybe might be some odd way to mentally hjack a person's opinion but maybe, just maybe, I'm terribly dense when it comes to being shown sincerity. God humans are odd.
12:45 April 9th 2025So I've never jumped off a cliff and this title isn't meant to be some sort of metaphor either.I just wanted to have an odd title as my first post. Sorta comparaable to clickbait, I guess. Like a poorly written spam email but I sorta like that look for a blog. Somewhat like a gacha machine, semi thought out thoughts or not thought out ..thoughts. I'm sure I write like an idiot even after all these years. I'm still figuring out to write well while staying true to myself. Okay, maybe the title could be a metahpor but "taking a risk" as a concept is so so generic that you could apply it to anything really. I think that's all I wanna say for this first post. Maybe I'll say more about myself in my next entry but writing about yourself is scary.